heart

this heart likes what it likes and hates what it hates. no one can dictates over it even its own master except Allah. Rasulullah may peace be upon him, always recite this doa, ya mukkalibal kulub, stabbit qulubana a'la deenek. oh, the controller of the heart, make me steadfast in my religion. this doa it described the heart as if it was a feather being flip over and over again by the wind. very hard to control over it that we ask Allah to make our heart always prefer our deen over all other things. have u have any control of whom u will love? no! u just know u already fell in love. i asked Allah, that i will love whom He love, and hate whom He hates. By Allah, it is a great trial to fall in love with someone and get carried away with the feelings that we no longer love someone for Allah sake, but love someone because of our desires and our lust. such love doesnt bring closer to Allah but bring closer to hell fire when we start prefering love of a human over love of Allah. our heart will start to harden slowly, we see with our eyes and we also see with our heart. Hardened heart is like heart that has lost all it sense no longer can see and feel, no longer can distinguish what is wrong and what is right, walhamdulillah Allah is full of mercy. When he created heart, he also made inside each of our heart a warner that always pull us toward the truth all the time. thus, Our heart will never be truly blind but it is our arrogance that prevented us from accepting the truth.  The disease of the heart is so subtle, if u start thinking about it you surely have it. if you never think about it, surely u never guard yourself against it. it always haunt you and all your life exhausted trying to keep your heart free from it until Allah takes your life while you being the winner at that moment or you being the loser at that moment. Its a fight that only settle if you no more walks among the living. This heart is so hard to control that i thought training a wild beast is easier because you know at some point the beast will be tamed but this heart? Only Allah knows when our heart will be truly pure.